Hi. My name is Geoff, and I am an addict. I’ve come to this realization recently that I truly am an addict. The real problem with this, is that the things I’m addicted to are all legal and excepted in culture. I’m not addicted to drugs or alcohol. I’m addicted to food and soda.
But the realization I’ve come to lately is that as surely and a crack addict is killing himself with his addiction, I am killing myself with mine.
I ended up in the hospital last night for around four hours with what turned out to be gallstones. I’m not sure how much of this has to do with my weight and eating habits. But I do know that everything they told me not to eat is basically a list of the things that I eat on a daily basis.
Now as I sit here in some pain having no idea what I can eat I realize that I truly was eating myself to death. I’ve let myself go completely lately. I weigh 390 pounds and can honestly say that I’m disgusted with that number. I can’t believe that I’ve let myself get to this point.
The only explanation that I really have is that I really am addicted to food. I have chosen to eat whatever I want no matter the results. I have gained an amazing amount of weight just in the last little while. I truly don’t know how I got here.
Last night as I laid in the hospital bed, I realized just how bad I had let things get. And how close I’ve come to losing it all. I saw myself helpless in a hospital undergoing tests. It scared me so much.
Than the doctor came in and while telling me that I’ll have to have surgery, he told me that my weight will make that a problem. So, for right now I have to go check in with the surgeon this next week. And I have to start a list of the foods that I can safely eat. So far, in the last 24 hours, I’ve had a tortilla and some applesauce. Plus a lot of water.
I’m not sure what I’m going to do. Everything that I normally eat is now off limits. I now have to find new foods that don’t hurt me. I have to find some way to lose weight. But I still need to do it safely. I don’t want to just lose weight cause I’m not eating anything. But at this point I’m not sure what I’m going to eat.
Which brings me back around to my addiction. I’m addicted to foods that are hurting me, and yet all I want to do is eat those food and drown my sorrows in a big plate of something. But I know that I can’t. I have too many reasons to live for. And I’m not ready to give up on it.Hi. My name is Geoff, and I am an addict. I’ve come to this realization recently that I truly am an addict. The real problem with this, is that the things I’m addicted to are all legal and excepted in culture. I’m not addicted to drugs or alcohol. I’m addicted to food and soda.
But the realization I’ve come to lately is that as surely and a crack addict is killing himself with his addiction, I am killing myself with mine.
I ended up in the hospital last night for around four hours with what turned out to be gallstones. I’m not sure how much of this has to do with my weight and eating habits. But I do know that everything they told me not to eat is basically a list of the things that I eat on a daily basis.
Now as I sit here in some pain having no idea what I can eat I realize that I truly was eating myself to death. I’ve let myself go completely lately. I weigh 390 pounds and can honestly say that I’m disgusted with that number. I can’t believe that I’ve let myself get to this point.
The only explanation that I really have is that I really am addicted to food. I have chosen to eat whatever I want no matter the results. I have gained an amazing amount of weight just in the last little while. I truly don’t know how I got here.
Last night as I laid in the hospital bed, I realized just how bad I had let things get. And how close I’ve come to losing it all. I saw myself helpless in a hospital undergoing tests. It scared me so much.
Than the doctor came in and while telling me that I’ll have to have surgery, he told me that my weight will make that a problem. So, for right now I have to go check in with the surgeon this next week. And I have to start a list of the foods that I can safely eat. So far, in the last 24 hours, I’ve had a tortilla and some applesauce. Plus a lot of water.
I’m not sure what I’m going to do. Everything that I normally eat is now off limits. I now have to find new foods that don’t hurt me. I have to find some way to lose weight. But I still need to do it safely. I don’t want to just lose weight cause I’m not eating anything. But at this point I’m not sure what I’m going to eat.
Which brings me back around to my addiction. I’m addicted to foods that are hurting me, and yet all I want to do is eat those food and drown my sorrows in a big plate of something. But I know that I can’t. I have too many reasons to live for. And I’m not ready to give up on it.
